The Ripple Effect

The Voice of TEAM  Number 22  Spring 2003

From our students—Not what I expected
by 
Adam Kistler

 

I walked away at the end of our class and all I could say was, "Well, that's 
not at all what I expected from a rock climbing class."  But that wasn't 
bad.  I truly enjoyed the class time that we had, and I truly wish that we 
could have had more of it.  I learned a lot during those few short hours that 
we spent together.  I learned about myself, and other people (both in the 
class and otherwise), and the process of rock climbing as well.  I think 
I'll talk about the process of climbing first.  Because, while this was 
central to the class, it almost seemed secondary in the long run.  First 
off, I learned a new knot.  I love learning new things, and learning that 
knot was really cool for me.  I use it all the time now, especially at work, 
so that was one of the most helpful physical things I learned.  Another 
physical thing I learned is that I need to rely more on my legs than I 
thought I did.  Most of my strength is upper body, my upper body strength to 
body weight ratio is overwhelming.  However, there were several times on the 
wall, when it just wasn't enough, and I realized I had to use my legs for 
more than standing on.  And moving on.

One of the most interesting parts of the debriefing that we did in class was 
when you had everyone spout off an adjective that they felt reflected on 
their experiences.  I decided to write all of them down, and I'm going to 
use them as the basis for my paper because I feel that without the 
experiences of everyone else in that class, my experience would have been 
completely different.  First, I'm going to talk about the things that I 
learned about others, and interactions, and the way in which the adjectives 
relate to those.  The first word that jumps off of the page at me is TRUST.  
Trust is key, not only in rock climbing, in which you must trust your 
partner, but in the rest of life as well.  To lose trust in someone else, or 
for someone to lose trust in you is one of the biggest disappointments a 
person can have.  Partnership, the intimate relationship between both 
climber and belayer is intense.  The teamwork that is felt between not only 
these two people, but everyone in the gym is amazing.  I felt that I was a 
part of a great team while I was at that gym, and during our classroom time. 
 
Several aspects that added to this sense of team were; SUPPORT, 
ENCOURAGEMENT, EXCHANGE, and RESPECT.  Each person in the class supported each other person in the class.  No one was up on the wall, or the trash 
can, or the bleachers, or being helped up, without the support of everyone.  
The exchange that happened in the class was almost always positive.  Whether 
we were exchanging ideas or experiences in the classroom, or exchanging 
encouragement at the gym, it was all important.  And finally, respect.  I 
know that I respected each person in that class.  They all impressed me in 
one way or another.  I also began to have more respect for myself and my own 
achievements.  I learned a lot about other people in this class.  One of the 
most moving experiences I've ever had was listening to each person's story 
at the end of class.  I haven't felt that close to a group of people in a 
long time.  We moved through Blanchard's stages of development pretty 
quickly it seemed.

Relationships between people are extremely complex.  I think that because of 
the time that I spent in this class, I am better able to handle all aspects 
of my relationships to other people.  Situations will always arise in which 
my normal choices will not be available to me because of the actions and 
decisions that have been made by other people, but because I am able to look 
into the deeper aspects of my relationships with people, I think I will be 
able to handle these situations in a much better manner.

I learned many things about myself.  I learned that I have an almost 
impossible time opening up to people.  It's not that I don't trust people, I 
do, I just have a hard time saying how I truly feel.  I need to work on 
that.  I also need to work on my life goals.  I have some, but I don't know 
how I want to achieve them.  That was one of the most important parts of 
class for me.  The goal setting and accomplishments really hit home with me. 
 
I found that this class was an escape for me.  I escaped from my life.  
It's not that I have a bad life, I don't.  I really enjoy my job, I have a 
girlfriend whom I love very much, but the idea of escape was very prevalent 
for me.  I needed the time to think about nothing else, to focus on nothing 
except reaching for that next hand hold, and trying to find a place for my 
feet.  My mind needed a break.  I'm only 19 years old, and I feel so 
stressed out at times that I just want to scream.  But I also learned about 
myself, and am still learning about myself, that I have drive and 
determination.  I will work my butt off to achieve a goal that I set for 
myself.  However, I'm also very nervous about failure.  I don't want to 
fail, and I think that I refuse to place goals in front of myself that I 
have the possibility of failing at.  I need to find the confidence that will 
lead me towards higher accomplishments.  I hope that I can overcome my 
internal boundaries, because I must do that before I can overcome any 
external ones.  Hopefully with the help and support of other people, I will 
gain that confidence, and with my newly discovered drive, I will achieve my 
lofty goals.  And all of this I learned in a rock climbing class. Who knew 
that a trip up a 20 foot wall would be the easiest part in a trip into the 
inner depths of myself.